[Beth|20] My mood typically reflects off of the people around me. I don't really speak my mind in person, but when it comes to Tumblr, my thoughts are spoken loudly. I'm someone that you can always come to talk to, so if you ever need anybody, I'm here(: Enjoy my blog<3 xox

ilanachan:

I don’t like people.

Venting.

I honestly wish I wasn’t so depressed and suicidal. It’s not that I even want to be, I just am. When I’m happy, it only lasts momentarily, then sadness strikes again. Everyday. Sometimes the sadness gets so overwhelming, that I’d rather end it, rather than “be strong” everyday. I mean, I’m a waste of space anyways. I haven’t succeeded in a single thing that I’ve ever done. I’m going nowhere in life. People would probably say “so get off of your ass and change that”. It’s harder than you think. I wish everybody could just live in my shoes for a week. Tell me if you can deal with the moments of temporary happiness. The even more depressing thing is, I’m probably only ever happy when I’m high. That’s why I smoke. To be happy. So I won’t kill myself. It’s too damn hard to be strong. What the fuck happened to the happy girl I used to be? Or have I always been like this, and I’m just realizing it now? There’s this one girl on my Facebook who is always just so damn happy with her life. Why? Because she gets every little thing handed to her, from her mommy and daddy. I wish I could be as happy as her, but then again, who wants everything they have, without earning it? My life could have been different. I could have had both parents. I could have had everything handed to me. Maybe I would be happy right now. Maybe I wouldn’t know what being suicidal feels like. Maybe I’d actually wake up, happy to be alive. Maybe I’d be on a successful path right now. Maybe. But it’s nowhere near like that. I wish everybody could see how sad I am, how serious this really has become. But what would that matter? Everybody has their own problems to worry about. One person gone, what would I matter? None. I’d leave nothing great and memorable behind. Those are usually the people remembered when they’re gone, right? The successful ones? Maybe if I was rich, people would care. But maybe if I was rich, I wouldn’t be so sad. I’m not saying money buys happiness, but it makes life a whole lot easier. This is all of the bullshit that runs through my head EVERY SINGLE DAY OF MY LIFE. Could you live with this? Would you give in to death? I’m on the brink. And I’m scared. I want somebody to save me. I want somebody to just hold me, while I tell them all of my secrets. I want to hear that everything will be okay. But that won’t happen. Why bother people with my problems? Why would somebody care? I don’t want to leave somebody speechless and in shock, so I falsely let everybody believe that I’m fine, I’m okay. How long can I let this charade go on, without help, before I’m gone? I’ve tried talking to people. I’ve tried. But I’ve been so broken down and beaten, that I can’t trust anybody. Everybody has hurt me. I’m one giant scar, I guess you could say.

shekillswithkissesxo:

:)

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So I was watching some old TV shows the other day and I got bored and did some search…

baby-purple:

Suzie crabgrass- From Ned’s declassified school survival guide

Then

Now-

Ned Bigby 

Cookie

Jennifer aka Moze

Loomer

Coconut Head

Gordo from lizzie mcguire 

Larry

Suite life of Zack and Cody- Esteban 

Zack

Cody

The Twins

Wizards of Waverly place- Justin

(OMFG!!)

Max

Zoey 101- Dena

Dustin

Lola

Chase

James

Quinn-

Cory in the house- Cory

Sophie 

Newt

That’s so Raven- Chelsea

Smart Guy- Tj

Marcus

Hannah Montana- Miley

Oliver

Boy meets world- Cory

Topenga-

Shawn-

Drake and Josh- Josh

lovequotesrus:

EVERYTHING LOVE

(Source: darynberry)

MATTIE MCKIBBEN!

spaceandweed:

Perfection